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Capcom shutting down the Xbox 360 servers for Dragon’s Dogma and Dragon’s Dogma: Dark Arisen

In an announcement on their website on Wednesday, Capcom announced that they would be shutting down Dragon’s Dogma and Dragon’s Dogma: Dark Arisen servers for the Xbox 360. This will mean that players on the Xbox 360 will no longer have access to pawns from other players, or be able to battle the Ur-Dragon, they will still be able to play all other aspects of the game in off-line mode.

For those who play Dragon’s Dogma on the PS3, or Dragon’s Dogma: Dark Arisen on the PS4, Xbox One, or PC, the game servers will remain accessible and fully functional.

Health scare from severe panic attack and stress

Last night I had a nasty health scare. I started feeling a painful burn in my ribs, the muscles across the back and wrapping around my chest hurt in sort of a burning pain manner. I tried to lay down to see if that would help ease the pain of the muscles, but after a little while it just got worse and worse. I started to worry about if it might be a heart attack, going over in my head everything I knew about heart attacks, and I also started to think on the fact that soon I was going to need to go see a doctor about the pain I have in my leg.

I tried moving all sorts of ways to get the pain in my rib cage to cease, and sometimes it eased off a bit, but then would just get really bad all over again. I took two aspirin and had my roommate make me a bottle filled with hot water I could put against my back. It seemed to help, but the pain kept flaring up and I kept going back to the worry about if I should have my roommate call my brother so he could take me to the ER.

It finally got bad enough that my roommate called my brother anyway and I talked with my brother, who walked me through the symptoms and asked about symptoms that would indicate a heart attack. I did not have any symptom of a heart attack other than pain and that was not in the heart area, just the muscles that wrapped around my chest and back. I took my blood pressure on an old machine I had left over from when I cared for my dad, and it said my blood pressure and pulse were in normal range, although the reading did indicate hypertension, but I was in very agitated state, so will check it again when I am not worked up and see what it says then.

I settled back down as comfortably as I could after that and tried to get the hot water bottle to ease the pain in my back some, but after an hour or so I was up again, the twisting in my muscles having spread inward to the point that I puked up everything I had ate earlier in the day. After that I was able to get a bit of sleep and somewhere in the night the pain eased off enough I stayed asleep.

When I woke this morning my back still ached, but most of the pain was gone and I could think over that happened. I have come to the determination that stress caused a panic attack that caused my muscles to start locking up and I entered a degenerative state where the more I hurt the more stressed I became, so the more my muscles locked up and made me hurt. Nasty cycle of pain caused by all of the stress I have been under the past few months. I long for things to calm to the point i no longer have to suffer from painful anxiety attacks like that. Stress in limited amounts I can handle, anxiety attacks I can weather through, but that was just… miserable. I’ve had those same situations in the past, but it’s been a while since the last episode that was that bad.

Sort of back online

My roommate got a cell phone today that can create a wi-fi hotspot, so now I can get back online when he is around and has his wi-fi turned on. It is not a perfect solution, but it does allow me to get back online and get some things done to try and get my writing back on track and hopefully start up some kind of home based business with my writing and 3D modeling.

Writing Update: Scorpius Port

I was working on Scorpius Port the past couple of days, but most of that work was in 3D modeling concepts that I have been making as I try to get a good feel for how the station looks. These will eventually be used as the cover art for the novel, so it is time well spent while I think about what to write in the story.

As for what to write, I am up to 29,716 words of rough draft in the novel. It is frustrating trying to get things done without reliable access to the Internet, however, and I am still a little uneasy on if I will get together the money needed for the electric bill or not, so those two concerns are leaving me stressed out and distracted a lot of the time.

For now, I am still making good progress and will be posting more updates when I am able to.

Happy Valentines Day

I’m not much for relationships, but I’ve always kind of liked Valentine’s Day, I think it’s the hopeless romantic in me. Maybe I’ll spend the day plotting out some mushy romance story to never get around to writing… hmmm… or a horror story about those little arrow toting cherubs and hearts… that could have potential.

The cherubs look all sweet and smiling on the cards, but the reality is they are some ancient things that have nasty sharp teeth and used to hunt people for their hearts.

Okay, so maybe the hopeless romantic in me is more of a pessimist about romance and all that. Feel free to write some kind of little variation on the above prompt and share it in the comments though. I would love to read it.

Update on novel progress: Scorpius Port

I’ve been working on Scorpius Port and it is now at roughly 25,000 words of rough draft material and still going strong, with the rest of the story planned out in small snippets of what the scene should have in it and accomplish. I revised the story a bit from the original plan, making what had been first planned to be two minor characters into the lead characters instead and have found the story works much better with that change, I also have settled on a solid antagonist, who surprised me, since they had started out as one of the characters that was supposed to be a good guy in the story. I am hoping that, because of the tilt from good guy to antagonist, their motives are able to be made feel real and the character can be transformed into a solid villain rather than being one who is only there to be the bad guy.

I’m going back through the How to Think Sideways and How to Write A Series courses as I work on the story, since I am hoping that this can be a stand-alone that could start off a series.

Gameplay videos on hold due to YouTube policy changes and loss of Internet

Because of changes in how YouTube’s video program is going to work, and a now limited ability for me to get online,
I am being forced to revise my business scheme for the videos that I was going to be making. Rest assured that I still plan to create the videos, I simply need to take some time to go over the new rules that YouTube is implementing.

On top of that is a now limited ability to access the Internet. In the wake of losing my job, I have had trouble keeping all of the bills paid, and the Internet is one of the major ones I have been forced to let go for at least the next month or two. I am still working on my writing, however, and trying to get my old computer to do video editing and 3D models so I can be ready to go when I am able to get back online.

Hopefully by March I will be back in a position to be uploading gameplay videos.

Here it is, the first of my Fallout 4 Let’s Play videos

In this special 4 part set to kick off my Let’s Play series for Fallout 4:

Tristan Hawke, a former military special forces sniper, finds his life devastated by the onset of nuclear war. Tristan flees his home in the suburbs with his wife, Nora, and their infant son, Shaun, to seek out the safety he has been told awaits them in the latest of Vault-Tech’s survival shelters – Vault 111, but is it really the safe place the Vault-Tech representative claimed it to be? Or does Vault 111 harbor dark secrets and hidden dangers?

 

 

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This is a Fallout 4 Let’s Play video – the first in a series of Let’s Play videos for Bethesda’s Fallout 4, that I am making as my starter project in learning how to make game play videos. This is not only the first in my Let’s Play Fallout 4 series, it is also the very fist Let’s Play gameplay video I have ever made.

This special starter set of videos totals about an hour’s worth of gameplay, and has been divided into roughly 15 minute blocks. (Think of it like the hour long premier of a new series set in Bethesda’s Fallout setting.)

I am playing the Game of the Year Edition of Fallout 4, so I have all of the Add-ons.

The Add-ons included with the GOTY edition are:
Automatron
Wasteland Workshop
Far Harbor
Contraptions Workshop
Vault-Tech Workshop
Nuka-World

I am also using Bethesda’s Fallout Pip-Boy app on my cell phone

The Mods I have installed are:
[PS4] OCDecorator
[PS4] STC – Base Game – Scrap That Commonwealth!
[PS4] STS – Base Game – Scrap That Settlement!
Gone Hunting/Fishing
[PS4] Simple Camping
[PS4] Posters of the Commonwealth
[PS4] Static Baskets and Bins
Postwar Workshop
And can be found at Bethesda’s Fallout 4 mods site.

I can’t include music in my videos, but, if you want to listen to the game’s music you can find it over at Amazon, I highly recommend it, the game has awesome music.
Fallout 4 (Original Game Soundtrack)

And, it figures that while I am snuggled in my coat to stay warm I should find:
Fallout Fleece Blankets
I want them all. lol

[Note: Some of the links included with this video are affiliate links]

Permission to create this video and monetize it has been kindly granted by Bethesda

Changes under way

Phantascene is undergoing some changes, but don’t worry, they are for the good and my writing is not going away, although it will most likely be moved into a sub section of the site. Not sure on the end result yet, but I know major changes are being plotted in my notebook. And… this video will explain them, or if you want to read the transcript I have it in Changed Announcement Transcript under Hello World up there in the top menu bar.

Writing is about perspective

Last night I had a talk with a friend of mine about the story I am working on and getting it written. We talked about a lot of stuff, and there was a lot of things I could not explain about the story; such as how it was going to end, or what it was that the protagonist in it was fighting for. Somewhere along the way the idea of giving him a pet raccoon was added into the mix of things we talked about. The conversation wrapped up with a bit on my struggles with the right way to end a story, and the feeling I had like I had forgot how to finish a story.

It was a good talk, and I am still arguing with the character about why I do not want to give him a raccoon.

As I started working this morning I was still thinking about the things we had talked about (and arguing with the character on why he could or could not have a pet raccoon). I was also contemplating the way writers approach a story, how structure is determined, and I saw a few quotes that I liked. I dug out my old green artist’s journal to record them. This old green book is based on the book from the novel Illusions, where I open it at random, read the quote that is written on whatever page I open it to, then get back to work. Today I added three more quotes to random pages because of how they resonated with me on the current struggles I was experiencing:

Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, like a long bout of some painful illness. One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven on by some demon whom one can neither resist nor understand.

~ George Orwell

 

The road to hell is paved with works-in-progress.

~ Philip Roth

 

Before I wrote the Potter books, I’d never finished a novel.

~ J.K. Rowling

 

After I had those quotes written, I flipped through a few pages and found the only entry that I have included that is a quote I myself made at one time. It was in a chat with a friend, the same one I was talking with last night, back in August of 2003.

So far I got this page worth of text… well… a page with text on it… one letter… an e… but it’s a capitol e!

And there is, to me, a good example of perspective in writing. It did not matter to me at the time that I was staring at a page, and had been for some time, on which the only writing was a single capitalized letter of the most common letter in the English language. I had something on the page, it was no longer a blank page, I could work with that, I could write something from that. Would I keep that E in the finished work? I have no idea, I do not even recall what I was trying to write at the time, but whether or not I kept it does not matter. I had started working on whatever I was writing and from that meager beginning a written work was born.

Writing is all about getting started. Begin with a single letter and from that build a word, transform that word into a sentence that becomes part of a paragraph and keep building outward into pages and chapters and into a finished story. It all begins with a single letter on the page.

I still have not figured out that elusive ‘how does one end a novel?’, but for the moment, I think I will take my cue from the King in Lewis Carroll’s, Alice in Wonderland:

“Begin at the beginning,” the King said, very gravely, “and go on till you come to the end: then stop”